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THE BRUTAL TRUTH ABOUT NERVOUS SYSTEM HEALING

Ever wondered why healing your f*cked-up nervous system feels like wandering through a minefield blindfolded? Yeah. Me too.

Let me rip the mask off this “gentle journey” bullshit and show you the blood-soaked reality of what’s actually happening.

THE TRIGGER LABYRINTH

Your dysregulated system isn’t just “sensitive” – it’s a goddamn chaos engine running on corrupted code.

External triggers, internal triggers, shit you don’t even recognize as triggers… They’re everywhere, invisible and lethal.

You try some healing practice that should work and your body locks up in freeze or floods with anxiety. You did everything “right” and still got knocked on your ass.

And women? Your hormonal cycles aren’t just “challenging,” they’re brutal resurrection rituals every month. Your bleeding depletes minerals and water, stripping away resources your nervous system desperately needs to hold itself together.

This isn’t weakness. It’s biological warfare against your own stability.

Clarity doesn’t come from trying harder. It comes from surrendering to the monster inside you that’s been keeping score all along.

YOUR RATIONAL MIND IS THE ENEMY

Your thinking brain believes it can logic its way through trauma. This is a f*cking lie. A big one.

Regulation isn’t a cognitive process. It’s primal, instinctual, buried in your brainstem and viscera. Your rational mind is the jailer, not the liberator. (Read that again.)

True healing happens when you stop “doing” regulation and start allowing the savage intelligence of your body to reclaim its power.

Your system doesn’t need more control. It needs permission to remember what it knew before the world broke you.

THE CRUEL NONLINEARITY

Healing isn’t a straight line. It’s a bloody spiral through darkness.

You’ll taste freedom, then get dragged back into the pit.

You’ll feel powerful, then collapse under the weight of old patterns.

This isn’t failure. It’s the brutal reality of transformation.

The momentum builds only when your system accumulates new resources: clarity carved from chaos, attunement born from ashes, somatic capacity forged in fire, and the refined perception that comes from staring into the void without flinching.

TIME IS NOT YOUR ENEMY

You want it fixed now. Yesterday. Ten years ago before it all went to hell.

Wake up. Your system spent decades building fortress walls and digging trenches. Why the f*ck would years of accumulated survival patterns dissolve overnight?

Healing takes time because your nervous system is rewriting its core operating system while still running all primary functions. It’s not being slow to spite you. It’s doing impossible work, without shutting down completely.

Patience isn’t weakness. It’s strategic violence against the systems that tried to break you.

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THE OVERWHELM IS THE POINT

That intensity crushing you? The symptoms flooding your awareness? The feeling of drowning in your own neurochemistry? This isn’t the system failing. It’s the system speaking its truth.

Healing means living in the brutal space between old patterns (triggers, symptoms, collapse) and new capacity (stability, awareness, power). This transition isn’t gentle. It’s a war zone where past and future battle for control of your present.

STOP SEEKING VALIDATION FROM THE BLIND

The people around you will never fully understand the depths of your experience. This isn’t their fault. They can only meet you as deeply as they’ve met themselves.

Stop looking for validation from those who haven’t descended into their own darkness. Their approval isn’t the prize. Your savage self-validation is.

MORE ANGER, MORE EXHAUSTION IS THE VICTORY

Shouldn’t healing mean less anger and more energy?

F*ck no.

As your system stabilizes, it gains the strength to feel what was too dangerous to feel before. Those waves of rage, grief and bone-deep exhaustion aren’t signs of failure. They’re buried truths finally strong enough to surface.

This isn’t regression. It’s resurrection.

HEALING ISN’T YOUR FULL-TIME JOB

The endless vigilance – tracking triggers, practicing regulation, monitoring patterns – will burn you to ash if you make it your entire existence.

Healing isn’t a 24/7 crusade. Sometimes the most powerful move is to stop trying so damn hard and let your system integrate on its own terms.

THE DARK TRUTH

Healing isn’t about getting it right. It’s about meeting the monster they tried to kill in you – again and again and again.

Even when it feels like you’re drowning in quicksand, your system is fighting for your life.

Every moment of raw attunement, every pause between the chaos, and every breath of fierce self-compassion is reshaping your neural landscape.

You’re not behind.

You’re not broken.

You’re a weapon being forged in fire.

And the heat is necessary.

Why you shouldn’t be an entrepreneur

For every person out there who goes after her dream, ten more sit on their hands and whine. Trust me. I hear from them every day.

I work 12-hour days. I’m exhausted.

I have kids and a husband and a full-time job.

I don’t know how.

Who would listen to me anyway?

But who am I to show up and say what helped me?

Good, then go take a nap and quit bitching about the dream you have of being your own boss and actually impacting human lives in a real, tangible way.

The rest of us stay up late and get up early if we need to. We function on four hours of sleep (sometimes less) and all but kill ourselves to get our message out. Because. We. Must.

Because the burn – the desire to support people and fulfill our mission – is so great, we can’t sleep anyway.

I’m officially declaring war on bullshit excuses

I work with women who get up at 3 a.m. and work on their own business until they have to get the kids off to school. Some stay up until dawn instead. A few do both. Some use their lunch breaks. Some record their ideas on their cell phones during the commute.

“My passions drive me to the typewriter every day of my life, and they have driven me there since I was twelve,” Ray Bradbury once said. “So I never have to worry about schedules. Some new thing is always exploding in me, and it schedules me, I don’t schedule it. It says: Get to the typewriter right now and finish this.”

But I’ll be too tired.

But no one understands what I’m trying to create. They look at me like I’m insane.

But my relationship with my spouse and children will suffer.

Really? Your family won’t understand if you need an hour or two to yourself every day to do what you love? You can’t muscle through a workday on too little sleep? Or is the truth simply you’re afraid you will fail?

Ernest Hemingway – Nobel Prize in Literature, Pulitzer Prize for Fiction, Bronze Star Medal – said the most terrifying thing he ever encountered was “a blank sheet of paper.”

Writing is hard. Creating is hard. Being your own boss is hard.

It’s not lucrative at the start. It’s isolating and often heartbreaking. So if you’re not getting it done, don’t beat yourself up.

Not everyone is meant to be her own boss

Not everyone has the fire, hears the thunder, feels the promise of the moonlight.

And that’s okay.

But the rest of us can’t help it.

Nelson Algren, who won the National Book award for his novel The Man With the Golden Arm, spent five months in jail for stealing a typewriter. That is dedication.

“In an unmoored life like mine, sleep and hunger and work arrange themselves to suit themselves, without consulting me,” Kurt Vonnegut said.

So decide. Are you finally ready to dedicate yourself to your business? To do what it takes until it takes?

No one one will blame you if you’re not.

But if you are, take every excuse and flush it. Then get to work.

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